God of Miracles

For some time now, our church has been singing new songs by Bethel Music.  There are some songs that I really like, but recently, there was one song that really spoke to me; it is entitled Miracles and produced by Jesus Culture:

The One who made the blind to see
Is moving here in front of me
Moving here in front of me

The One who made the deaf to hear
Is silencing my every fear
Silencing my every fear

(Chorus) 
I believe in You
I believe in You
You're the God of Miracles
I believe in You
I believe in You
You're the God of Miracles

The One who does impossible
Is reaching out to make me whole
Reaching out to make me whole

The One who put death in its place
His life is flowing through my veins
His life is flowing through my veins

(Chorus)

The God who was and is to come
The power of the Risen One
The God who brings the dead to life
You're the God of Miracles
You're the God of Miracles


We sang this at church the Sunday before last.  It was one of those Sundays where you drag yourself into church after an amazingly tiring week.  For Sean and I, it wasn't so much a physical exhaustion as much as it was a spiritual and mental one.  Three weeks earlier, Sean found out that one of the new players on his 11U ball team had a mom who was being sent home on hospice with a brain tumor that had just been diagnosed a few weeks prior.  When we found out about her condition, we began to pray in faith.  For the first week, we saw miracles!  We saw someone who was in a near unconscious state become fully conscious - eating, drinking, talking, smiling.  And then the seizures started, and it went downhill very fast.  Mandy breathed her last breathe on earth and her first breath in heaven on February 15, 2016.  We were devastated!

When you go through something like that either walking with someone, believing for someone, or in the midst of battle yourself, you have so many questions when it doesn't, "work."  My dad explained the battle like a tug-a-war...we were fighting hard spiritually for her healing, but Satan didn't want her to live.  Jesus describes this battle in John 10:10: The thief comes to kill, steal and destroy, but I have come that you may have life more abundant. (paraphrase)  And when I heard that, it made sense!  But, in the back of my mind, I kept thinking, "But my God is bigger!"  After several weeks of internalizing this and praying about it, I have also come to terms with the fact that my God is bigger than my understanding as well.  One day, when I am in His glory, I will share in that full understanding of the bigger picture.

On that Sunday almost two weeks ago, I sang that song with very squashed faith.  I was singing it more as a confession for my own soul that even though the battle was lost, I STILL believe.  In fact, I even sang those exact words that morning to the Lord with tears in my eyes...I STILL believe.  It didn't work out like I thought it would, like I hoped it would.  There is a family pulling themselves out of devastation from this loss, and it isn't fair.  But, I STILL believe.

Maybe there is someone reading this who is going through a struggle of faith.  You're wondering where God is in your situation.  Wondering why He isn't moving like you had hoped.  I would encourage you to listen to this song, and if you can, profess with your mouth: I believe in You...You're the God of Miracles.  Even when we can't see Him moving, He is still on His throne...He is still bigger...He is STILL the God of Miracles!

To hear the song, visit:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=30rZvRc63vw

(You will have to copy and paste for the song.  Sorry, I couldn't get a hyperlink to work on it.)